Well today was the day, I got off my duff and filed my name change paperwork today. I have to admit I'm a bit numb now and it hasn't quite sunk in yet. I'm happy that it's done but it is definitely hard letting go of the old secure blanket.
When we got to the courthouse it turned out that it was a great day to choose for this. There wasn't one person waiting for anything. I've never seen a courthouse so dead (like I've seen a lot of courthouses). I went in and handed the clerk my form and my letter of recommendation. I had to write a check for $80 for the filing fee and I was so nervous I couldn't even write my name. It was as though my hand simply would not work.
As we were doing this a woman from inside the probate office noticed Dee and came over to talk to her. Seems she is a member of the curves that Dee works at. No one at curves knows about what's up with me so I'm kind of concerned that rumors will start flying, Dee on the other hand could care less.
As we were leaving the 2 guards stopped Diane to chat. They had started a conversation on our way in and had found out that she was a federal employee so they were asking questions about the IRS. In all honestly it looked more to me like the younger guy was flirting with her. I'm not a jealous person but that will take me some time getting used too. I'm simply not a threat or a deterrent any longer for guys who want to approach her.
It'll take a few says for this to sink in, I know in my heart it is time but I also know I have 39 years invested in a person that really no longer exists ....